Roller Coaster

Well, it's been a pretty rough 24 hours...I started bleeding last night, so you can imagine the thoughts that were running through my mind.  Fortunately, I was at home with my husband.  I called the Dr's office and the nurse immediately called me back.  She told me to put another patch on and to increase the progesterone shot from 1.5 to 2...and that the Doc would call me in the morning with further instruction. 

Calling my sister was the very hardest call that I ever had to make...but she was wonderful, as usual, and her main concern was me!  Then J called me to make sure that I was OK again.  The hardest part of this process is how bad I feel for N & J because I know that they must feel helpless...and then how bad they feel for K and I...it is a vicious cycle and we only get through it because of how much we all love and respect each other. 

This morning the nurse asked how soon could we get to Jacksonville?  Needless to say, we were ready and on the road in 15 minutes.  N & J met us there...

The ultrasound with the doctor was a bit confusing, but I believe this is the bottom line:
There is something there, he thinks that it is the gestational sac, but not for sure.  My uterus is tilted, so it is very hard to see.  He was unable to see the Yolk Sac, but told us that is was really early and again, my tilted uterus didn't help. He said that he couldn't say whether I had miscarried or not, that it was just too early to tell.  He did say that 20-25% of their IVF patients had bleeding during the first trimester and still carried to term.  So, that was comforting.   Our appointment to see the heartbeat was suppose to be this coming Friday, but at this point I believe we are going to try and postpone it until next Tuesday. We are hoping that we will be able to see more at that point.  His closing remarks were, "Well, it will either get much better or much better."  And to think, that I have wasted my God-given talent of sarcasm for all these years - why didn't I become a fertility doctor??!!!

After N got home she looked online, and confirmed that bleeding in IVF patients is not uncommon at all.  So, she also feels much better.

So, we are going to stay positive and just keep looking up and pushing forward.  We have so many family and friends praying and pulling for us.  There are too many positives to even think about feeling negative.  They say that tears cleanse the soul, so I think N & I are starting the week squeaky clean.  

Thank you all for allowing us to share our amazing story...